Kill The Illusion
I was really racking my brain for something to write about and I thought what’s really going on in my life now? I really can’t complain; I’m blessed. But if I did have one bone to pick, it would be about this constant mental battle I have. It deals with getting over people. The other night I was lying in my bed and I asked God to help me get over certain people. And clear as day He told me to “Kill the Illusion.” I knew this Word had to be from God. It was so clear; something so simple that I couldn’t have come up with myself. Maybe you need to kill the illusion too. I tend to let my imagination run wild and fantasize about people; make them perfect in my mind. That Word from God was telling me that I need to take some people off their pedestal and see them for who they really are. They are not meant to be a part of my life anymore, and the person(s) absence is best. Not that anyone who comes into my life will be perfect, but some people are not meant to be a permanent part of my life. I need to let them go, and better yet stop chasing them/wanting them to come back. I’ll be the first to admit, it’s hard to let go when you don’t have anything to grasp on to next. But that’s where faith and God come in.
“For just as the suffering of Christ flow over into our lives, so also through Christ our comfort overflows.” (1 Corinthians 1:5)
He will be our comfort during hard times and lonely times. Right now, I’m pouring into my passion which is writing, tending to my blog, as well as reading my manuscript again. I’m really pushing to have a memoir published in the next few years.
A New Year is here and if you’re reading this you’ve been blessed to see 2014 too! I’m happy that by the end of 2013, I was starting good habits so I wouldn’t have to embark on a dramatic “New Year, New Me” campaign. In 2014, I’ll just aim to continue practices I’ve started like a 30-day journal challenge, reading my Bible daily, and praying more often.
One of the biggest things I’m aiming to do in 2014 is be faithful in the little things. So often in my life, I’ll think of my goals and point Z without even fulfilling point A. I think God wants us to focus on point A because without A-Y we couldn’t get to Z. If we knew point Z right away, we might be overwhelmed and start to doubt God and ask, “How could I possibly get there?”
For instance, I didn’t start college knowing I’d get a producing job in Mobile after school. If I knew that I would say to God in 2009, “I’ve never worked at a television station.” “How am I supposed to get producing experience?” “Why am I going there?” “I don’t know anybody in Mobile.” “That’s 5 hours from home.”
So, in retrospect, God doesn’t tell us everything at once because we don’t need to know at that time. In His infinite wisdom, He reveals it to us when it is time.
“‘No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love him’ but God has revealed it to us by his Spirit. The Spirit searches all things, even the deep things of God. For who among men knows the thoughts of a man except the man’s spirit within him? In the same way no one knows the thoughts of God except the Spirit of God. We have not received the spirit of the world but the Spirit who is from God, that we may understand that God has freely given us.” (1 Corinthians 2: 9-12)
I, probably like a lot of you guys, have big dreams and goals for 2014. We want to accomplish things we couldn’t possibly do without God’s help. And with that in mind, we’re probably wondering how we’ll get there. I think it’s much less overwhelming when we attack our goals piece by piece and see the little things, we can accomplish each day. Once we do that, we’ll look up and see we’re ready for the big things and hey we made it to point Z.
“Whoever can be trusted with very little can also be trusted with much.” (Luke 16:10)
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